What is my “Why”?
Hi Friend! Confession – the end of last week I felt unmotivated and kept asking myself “What are you even doing?! Are you crazy!” I started thinking about why I even started this journey in the first place. Why did I want to put myself through the stress of owning a business and the uncertainty that it may bring? I came up with (3) solid reasons that I will need to consistently remind myself that it will be worth it when it is all said and done.
Number one and the most important reason – My family. For the first two years of Landon’s life, I worked 45-60 hour weeks, lived an hour from my workplace, so by the time I got home – I got very little time with him and there were a lot of instances where I would go days without seeing him. The hardest thing in the world is to feel like you are working yourself ragged to do what is best for your child and then you come home and he cries for Dad if you hold him. It is soul crushing and I went through such dark emotions. I took them out on Nick as well. We fought a lot. I was stressed, tired, and I brought that into our home. There wasn’t and end in sight and right before Covid hit, we had actually been given MORE work.
I know that the Pandemic has been very hard on a lot of families financially and mentally but I am so grateful for the opportunity it presented. I was able to live on our savings while I built my dream. Plus, I have spent so much important time with Nick and Landon in the last months that I never would have had otherwise. I will count myself as one of the lucky ones in all of this. So my first “Why” is my family – to give them a better me and more of my time. It is so important.
Number 2 – Freedom. I have always been a go-getter, I jump into the things I want to do and whether I am ready or not, I work it out as I go. I have also been a worker bee – always putting 110% into my job choice and wearing myself out over it. So I thought, if I am going to work this hard anyway – why not work for myself? Be my own boss, make my own rules, succeed or fail on my own accord. It is not for everybody sure, but it was important for me to at least make a go of it.
Number 3 – Financial Opportunity. One thing I remember my Dad saying over and over is “If you want to be wealthy, you won’t do it living paycheck to paycheck. Start your own business.” So here I am, rolling the dice and seeing what happens! Now, someone who does work for an employer and pulls a paycheck can certainly grow to be wealthy if they are smart with their money. But, for me – it didn’t matter how much I hustled, I still made the same amount each week. It is safe but it is stagnant. I wanted the opportunity to hustle for myself and expand my potential. As I grow and my business grows, I will start diversifying my streams of income so that I can really maximize my potential.
At the end of the day, I want to feel good about how I have spent my precious time here. Sitting behind a desk, slaving for someone else was not it. A quote I saw really hit me – “You’re killing yourself for a job that would replace you in a week if you dropped dead. Take care of yourself.” – Jet Li. No matter what, their business has to go on and the job needs to be done. I want to feel good that I spent my time serving myself, and those important around me. That is my why.
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